This morning, I read through some of the book of 1 Samuel.

Samuel holds dear to my heart for many reasons. One of those being that it was the very first book of the bible I read when I began this bible reading journey back in 2012.

Some of you reading this post today were with me on that journey so long ago!

Suddenly, I jostle awake. My eyes scream open, my heart rate soars. I look over at the clock, praying it’s very close to the 5:00 am wake up.

It’s not.

2:11 am.

Here we go. Again

My thought scurry loudly through my head. My mind will not shut off.

I go to the sink quietly, not wanting to wake my sleeping husband. He already lacks the gift of good sleep, so I do not want to be a contributing party to his lack.

I have a tendency to over-think. Over-analyze. Read too much into things.

As I get older, I am learning to rest more. Specifically, rest for my mind.

Years ago, I struggled horribly with anxiety and fear.

Much of it, was due to the things I was allowing into my heart and mind.

Endless googling, out of control worrying, constantly seeking to control all those things that I had no business trying to control.

Eventually, I became burnt out and physically and mentally DONE.